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Oct. 26th, 2013 08:24 pmKiss me hard before you go
Summertime sadness
I just wanted you to know
That, baby, you're the best
Summertime sadness
I just wanted you to know
That, baby, you're the best
I am cursed.
There is a dark stain that hangs over me, outside of original sin, outside of the slightly naughty actions of a youth who liked sweets and never got enough of them at home so had to find her fix else where. Outside of the fact that once, in first grade, I knocked over a girl on purpose on the playground because she made fun of my dress. A curse even removed from the the taint of my unnatural relationship with my papa; though I don't contend that was a sin, what I did with him I did out of love and want, it was beautiful and a natural progression of our closeness.
I loved my papa very, very much.
I love my papa. Every night, every moment when my eyes close, I can see him just as clearly as if he were standing in front of me. When I concentrate I can feel his arms around me, the heat of his breath in my ear and the warmth of his love. I miss his warmth, I miss his love. It's so cold now, so bitterly, bitterly frigged. It's like I can never get warm, as if my blood doesn't circulate through all of me any more, just to the parts to keep me alive, to keep me moving and thinking, planning, scheming.
( I wonder if that's the black magic )
I think I'll miss you forever
Like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky
Later's better than never
Even if you're gone I'm gonna drive (drive, drive)
Like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky
Later's better than never
Even if you're gone I'm gonna drive (drive, drive)